the fault in our upbringing: a depressing parody

discussed this issue with maternal figure.

related to former husband and current son. she said that the son is behaving as an irresponsible prick is because of the former husband's lacking nurturing moments with his child(ren).

obviously that is happening as the former husband is not a responsible being anyway.

so i try to get her mind to think of the possibility that after three decades, no one is to be blamed anymore because the son is all grown up and life lessons taught him so?

she retaliated by saying as a father, the former husband should bear all sins of his child(ren) for escaping and not even once attending to the needs of growing up.

yes i agree but not 100% should be placed on former husband. she adamantly stand by her opinion.

enjoy your blaming game. this is why the son will always find ways to cut loose from being committed.

time is running out.

my last post was, what, forteen months ago.

i actually miss writing here. though what i wrote here was mostly crap. lol

self doubting is my biggest nemesis now.

depression is getting chronic.

allergy is getting the best of me.

this plan of mine isnt as smooth as i thought it would be.

hollow woman.

turning the big three o is in another four months.

need to find my passion back. whatever that may be.

august eighteenth better be pulling in some serious mojo back.

serenade me with your best shot.

nothing is great when you have no expectations.

the emancipation of cougar

recently having to stay in vista due to rewriting proposal phase, i watched shinchan on TV. mind you, i havent watched since i was 15. anyway, i found the following revelation:



shinchan is the first ever cub who would pursue older woman.



he was in kindy, for god sake! now i can die in peace LOL

unhinged.

how do i tell you not to love me so much?
because i really cant return the generous favor.
because we are worldly different, no matter how similar you think we are.
because its not love if one party feels tied up.
because things wont be the same anymore.


i am horrible, arent i?

predisposition.

so the reason why you wont keep in touch with me is because...


i dont have whatsapp since i have a "dumb" phone.


oh well.


you set on me a different pedestal.

concentrated.

semi-conscious' quote of the year:

"padan lah muka tu menggerutu, hati busuk sangat."

the world does not revolve around you.

even when you thought that someone is writing about you, ASK first! do not jump into your own paranoid conclusions.

suave

the one-word title is the only adjective, i personally think, suitable to describe those men wearing tuxedo.

maybe i have a little obsession with celebs in suits, just teeny weeny bit.

i started my gleeful, concentrated liking with super junior, obviously. no thanks to sorry,sorry.

then it was harvey specter of aptly named series, suits. though mike ross has the innocence of a protege, but the way mister specter carries himself on screen is oh-so-dashing.

finally the man who manages to keep my passion burning alive has got to be ok taec yeon.

he is tall, well-built, funny and a little dorky/nerdy. *melting* remember how i mentioned my infatuation with 'em oriental? tulah, sapa suruh sekolah cina lagi lololololol

this is the video that made me falling head over heels <3 p="p">

feast your eyes yo!

*currently under stressed but no desserts around hence this will do :P*

mental gap/gab

after all these years, i finally see the major differences between mumsy and yours truly.

she has a keen sense in the surroundings whilst i dont.

i think im a social recluse, in the making lol

so whenever she starts telling me stories and commenting how people should be doing this instead of that, by golly i couldnt stop myself from saying, "let them be, we have no right to tell them what to do."

in which she will always reply me this, "eh kita memang kena bagitahu orang, kadang2 orang ni tak tahu."

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i love you to death but sometimes i cant help to think that we live in an entirely different world.