hmmm wuts up wif life??

waaaa i hate my life!!!!its so boring,so much problems,so many heartache.....waaaaaaaaaaaa am i not grateful??i have wonderful mom n lil sis,frens dat care abt me....but it seems like not enuff 4 me........sumtimes i want a person dat i can pour my heart out,care 4 them,love them unconditionally things like dat.....but then there will b times i hate all those things....how stupid is dat???i hate all da things i've done last semester......it was a f****** huge mistake dat i try 2 get 2 noe a guy dat was so out of my league........for those who knew,they noe who am i talking abt.....i noe dat im pretty 2 do such things but is it wrong to b frens wif ppl of d opposite sex??syahda i noe i sound very pathetic rite now n i noe u've been telling me 2 let things go....but i cant i really2 wish dat he'd tell me why did he shut me out of his life???i mean was i so ugly dat he dont wanna b frens wif me anymo???

arghhhhh i juz hav 2 let this things out of me......im so STUPID,LOSER,PATHETIC,F***ED UP,FELLS LIKE RUBBISH n all other negative things............=(