mapley hahaha

smlm aku buat keje gile
g lepak kt DE 18 dgn these bunch of TESL guys
black,ad,azzam n hamzah
at 12.30 midnight plak tu...
when black asked me to lepak2 through YM
i was thinking this:will it be appropriate?
i mean i will be the only female there
because farah is not coming since she just
came back from working
then i said this to myself
"ala lepak je,bkn buat pe pon"
so i did,i walk from my house
in the pitch dark night
where it was so quiet and eerie at times
dhlaa ade je org nk kaco
cant u just leave me alone? *urgghh*
we lepak2 there for almost 1 and half hours kot
i didnt say or interfere much with their discussion
as i am not related or involved with the issues being discussed
so all i did was just listening to what they got to say
most of the time that is....
in a nutshell,they talked about pretty much the same thing
as what my friends or female generally do
they talked about LOVE and they do gossip
*duh* so stop asking us why we gossip so much?
korg pon same je,xpayah laa nk point fingers at us
saying we shouldnt talk about other people
like hugh laurie's character in house m.d
sarcastically said: "we talk about other people
so that we feel better about ourselves"
or so i think,couldnt say i agree nor disagree
hohohoho ;p





in another occasion,she said i am very "loyal"
because i still like him no matter what he did
what had happen between us,the pain and all
the thing is i did meet new people
it just so happen that it never worked out
i dont blame them,i blame myself *sigh*
whatever it is,i concluded that part of my life
as the end of my interest
dont want to meet new people
dont want to fall all over again
dont want to feel stupid for myself
dont want to get my heart getting smaller
and certainly dont want to be disappointed AGAIN
i lost the passion SERIOUSLY
now im living my life without any worries about it...
im contented that i live by myself
companion-less





hey life goes on right?
so that is exactly what im doing
dont feel sympathy or any of that kind
i dont ;D
i dont need to justify why...
take care peeps



p/s:im going to do an endoscopy
to look at what went wrong with my gastritis
whether it has worsen and turned into ulcer *ouch*
wish me luck,all went well and smoothly :)