sacred.

just the other day, someone asked me what is love?
i replied "how should i know since i have never been in a serious relationship?"
it is a L.I.E.

truth be told,
i learned about love ever since i was in school.
okay let's focus only on the male-female heart-finding torturous voyage. LOL

previously i blogged about a primary school's crush.
and i started knowing him at the tender age of 10.
some even questioned it.
alright, so i was naive and did not know any better.

but the feelings were genuine.
isnt that what love is supposed to be?

i started have feelings when i reached puberty LOL
you know, the raging hormones phase
but i was reluctant when my wish came true.
i did not give my left arm for it.
i turned away from it.
i thought too much about my future.
who thinks of it when you are at that stage?
well i did.

he came back for a break and i met him.
the following day, i had to sit for a test.
i was too over the moon the night before
as it was a rare, i repeat, R.A.R.E occasion to happen to me.
i was deliriously happy.
but when i got the result for the test,
i failed it by a few misses.
the conclusion i made on that fateful day was:
i was never to get too cosy with blossoming daydream.

i considered all my feelings as honest.
unfortunately, it was always clouded with insecurities.