mood:convocation *yeay*

tomorrow will be THE DAY
where i round up my studying
of 5 years in UiTM
in TESL course...

never it crossed my mind
that im actually able to further studies
to this stage...
too many hardships/circumstances that discouraged me
to go on with pursuing better education

despite of financial difficulties
my beloved mother
who has suffered so much
who are ever willing to sacrifice
in every aspect of human being's capabilities
who never hang her hopes up
who eager to talk about improving life's situation
who despite of having to argue with her
very stubborn and always want to drag everyone down to earth
whenever people [in general] on cloud 9 *note:ME!*
she stands her ground,firmly.
she is the one who convinced me
to just study and let her worry about other things herself
which eventually
made me feel so damn proud to have her as my mom

my life would never be happy,
pleasant, worry-free...
i accepted the fact ever since i can think. logically.
but all her effort made it so different
that i dont feel too bad myself.

i hope my big bro is coming too
although i resented the idea in the first place
no thanks to his attitude for the past 8 years..
it just too bad that HE could not
celebrate it with us since he shut us
out of his life i-lost-count years ago...

i know i should be grateful
i know i shoud be content
i know i should be pompous
for having such a blissful people around me
throughout my 23 years of living and breathing

i should care less about those
conniving creatures
who expect me to fall from grace
who was sure that i would not make it in life
they can definitely "enjoy" the ride of karma...

facts:
*i watch hindustan movie and my favourite is mujhse dosti karoge *huge grin*
*i wanted to drive so badly that i even dreamed of driving cars. quite a number of time. =D
*my heart is like things in a box that says "fragile:handle with care"
*im a sickening crowd pleaser that people tend to get sick of after far too long
*my secret of staying so-called thin is to get yourself.... *tada* a gastritis
*i have bruxism and that helps in making my teeth look so straight...
*i choose my friends to the extend i avoid being too chummy with people
that sarcastic and harsh *fragility level is over the roof*
*i want to meet ZAID MUHAMMAD SAHARUN for the last time and get myself
the closure i have been looking for ;)
*i hate my handwriting LOL
*i let out a small chuckle whenever i think of something ridiculous
*i think i have two deformed, left feet. not because i cant dance,but because i walk funny =)
*i look at my feet's walking reflections everytime i walk past a glass.

ta~