you mean nothing.

i know we have known each other way back when we were
innocent and naive, perhaps.
we stuck with each other, doesnt matter whether we like it or not.
and i thought you had the best of me and i was willing to share.
yet as time passed, revelations surface itself.
you like to refer to yourself as the "victim" and whenever i tried to ask you to lend your ears to me, you never fail to switch the focus to yourself.
again and again, this happened quite a number of time.
then we moved on with our own growing-up phase
where we got into numerous events that help us to understand more
regarding life and adulthood.
we seldom meet up but we still keep in touch.
when the occasion of get together was held, you successfully
manage to make feel worse everytime we depart.

and you manage to do it again, recently.
you have not quite get over the "high-school competition" do you?
you said i was the one who have been giving you the cold-treatment
without actually telling you what was really going on.
i know you have a wonderful job where your paycheck is higher than mine
and the fact that you can still live life in the metropolitan city.
but guess what?
im tired of your constant competition
yes, let me admit certain facts/difference between the two of us
you are definitely prettier than me [checked]
you have a better life than me [checked]
you have a steady now and i dont [checked]
you have so much better things happen to you than me [double-checked]
so what more do you want from me?
do you want me to feel worse about myself than i already are?
do you want me to be lower/lesser than you in every aspect of life?
do you want me to be the biggest loser that ever existed in the world?
you know what?
you can take everything
heck i dont even want anything to do with you anymore
i dont appreciate this kind of friendship

to nooradila zolkiple
get the hell out of my life!