throw in the towel

resistance is futile.

that is what they used to tell me.

which is why i still join in the bandwagon.

simply because i am a make-love-not-war kind of person.

i dont like confrontations

and the only confrontations i have ever done are in dreams.

yes, in dreams. whereby i subconsciously telling people off.

never in real life. pathetic i know.

self defence mechanism.

no matter how much i detest myself at times,

i wont let anything bad happen to me.

especially in rare circumstances.

such as in studies. i always play it safe, always.

you can never find me adventurous in eating even.

i think i have been through a lot.

emotionally.

just when i wanted to hang my hopes up,

something always deter me.

like when i participating in the jungle trekking.

climbing the hill with zero stamina.

i was at the point of passing out.

but i keep pushing myself.

not to faint or show signs of emergency needed.

i only realized then that i am not quitter.

unfortunately for me,

i am a quitter in that department.

i quit easily.

maybe it is because i do not have any actual experience to overcome it.

and with that, i withdraw myself.